I am as light as a feather, as happy as an angel

A drawing Ben did for me a while back

I have a practice meeting tomorrow for uni and I really can't be fucked with it because I'm ill, again.... this is about my seventh cold of the year which has made me realise that I really need to get healthy. Wish me luck!

Don't cry child, you've got so much more to live for

Editing pictures.

I'm counting down the days till I get tattooed and wishing I was at university. I've had a couple of worrying days and I didn't feel like going to college because of it, so I didn't. Instead Ben looked after me and I went to work. I love that boy, I really do. I've dyed my hair on Monday and it keeps getting lighter every day, it's weird. I like it though. Last night Ben and I went for a meal and I loved every minute of it even the bit where I had rice round my mouth. College as as boring as always and I'm doing no work as always. Blugh.

Forget it. I can't explain it

I'm stupidly tired after getting very little sleep all last week and mostly last night, on the plus side art and photography is now over and the exhibition is up. I'm so glad it's all over and done with and that I have no exams, I can relax as much as I want now. I'm sorry, I don't have anything interesting to share because I haven't really done anything other than college, went to Jasmine's and Hannah's birthday meal and spent time with Ben. I'll be posting more now since I'll have no life again soon, specially When Ben goes away. I'll share photos of my last shoot soon and also some of the new things I brought lately. I'm going to ring the newest cover of Elle and have a long bath. Ben is coming over tomorrow and I plan to laze around with him.

Yesterday you said tomorrow. Just do it

Scarf from some random stall, vest top and cardigan from Zara and shorts from Topshop.
I only have one exam left to do, I can't wait for college to be over! I'm curently listening to really lame music waiting for my mum and Ben to get home... I plan to watch crap until we go to sleep, I only have art tomorrow and then meeting up with Amy and Tom will probably come out, so I don't mind if I don't sleep much. I really need to dye and cut my hair.

Passing an exam won't make me happy but it will make things easier

In two Fridays time, I should have enough money to go shopping and I can't wait... I haven't been shopping for myself since late February! I only have one more exam after tomorrow and I'm too happy to be stressed out about tomorrow's exam. I can always retake next year so I really don't mind what I get. Since I only have to go in for art now I have pretty much started my holidays and I'm going to enjoy it until I get my college results and then I'll probably cry at my bad grades and get depressed haha. The fact Ben is going away at that time doesn't help much. After my exam tomorrow I'm spending all day and night watching Skins with Ben until we fall asleep.

P.S: Sorry for the lack of interesting post lately but in about two weeks I'll be back to my normal routine.

Should I shake your hand or give you a kiss?

What the inside of my bag looks like most of the time.

So I ended up not going out, but I did go on a bike ride for five minutes on my own but got scared and went home (I'm not good on bikes) I've done nothing but listen to music and taken lame pictures. Tomorrow morning I'm doing a shoot with Jasmine and her sister and in the afternoon Toby is coming over for a couple of hours for a catch up. I don't know how I feel, what to think, what I should do or what I should say. So dramatic I know, I know... hahaha. I've got too much time on my hands but I'm not using it well.

You took my hopes and dreams and left me alone to cry

So today I'm slightly hung over and have no idea what to wear today. Petal and Lois are coming over this afternoon and then about ten more people are coming over because I have a free house again today. I might have a nap.

Her mind's made up, she don't wanna go steady

That's the first time I've worn those shorts in public other than the two times I wore them on holiday. I was feeling brave. Necklace from Topshop,top from New Look and shorts from Topshop.

My mum got me those three DVDs and that top from Topshop for Easter but I'm aloud them now. She also said she will buy me a ticket to Camp Bestivall (it's a festival) as an early 18th birthday present and I couldn't be happier. The line up includes - Laura Marling,Blondie,Mark Ronson,Eliza Doolittle,Frankie & the Heartstrings,Labrinth,Wretch 32,Yasmine,Caitlin Rose,Clare Maguire,Katy B and many more. I'm going with Tom, Petal and Phoebe and I'm so excited. I've just been listening to The Vaccines none stop since I got home and I think I'm going to watch Matilda this evening.

They say they've got a cure for my smile

My internet has been down, hence the lack of posts. I actually have nothing but pictures to share. Also, I've decided that my blog is going to have much less writing since for one, I am not a writer nor want to be and two, people I know read my blog and don't want them knowing about me over the internet when they can know about me in person.

It's better if you don't understand

Today was such a pretty day. I've eaten so much today that it's unreal. I've had, two pieces of toast with jam, three smallish doughnuts, packet of crisps, mars bar, two bowls of soup and for dinner I had chips and a fried egg. I think I'm eating my feelings SO DISGUSTING. On the plus sideI've decided on my top two universities today, University of the Arts London and University College Falmouth. I will be trying to get in to the fashion photography course since it's the only thing I can sort of do. I don't really mind which one I end up going to but I have no hopes in to getting in to the London one. The fact that my mum is on some romantic walk along the sea front makes me feel pretty sick. I'm going to be super busy next week and might not get a chance to blog much at all.

I'm gonna make you understand that you threw it all away

Today was not even worth exciting. I woke up at my normal time had some jam on toast and as soon as my mum went to work I went back to bed and missed two hours of Spanish then for some reason I bothered going in to art and did that for about four hours... although I got hardly anything done. He's only said two words to me since Saturday night "Alright darling?" and that's only because I asked if he was okay first. I don't understand why he's ignoring me I'm not the one who's done wrong and I actually want to stay friends even though I wasn't the one that acted like a cunt.

I wore eye shadow for the first time in years.

I finally found the energy to clean and tidy my room so I'm feeling better. Tonight I plan to get an early night since I have to actually function tomorrow, I'm going to some university convention so it's pretty important, I need to think up some questions and what university stalls I want to actually see. At the moment my top three universities are Birmingham City University, University College of Falmouth and University of the Arts London. They are the only ones I've found with courses I want to do and could maybe have a chance of getting in to... although apparently London is hard to get in to. I plan to watch one of these two films tonight.

Don't let your mouth get you into something your ass can't handle

Had a nice day until I got home. All I did in college was two pages of my photography project and I didn't even finish them...I also missed the train because I wanted to paint my nails.

Finally get to show you my new dog Buddy. He's lovely but a bit of a pain and the cats hate him. Also, I've taken my lip bar out so that's the last photo of me with it and it's an awful picture but fuck it.