It's not the same and that's a shame

I went to a party last night and then we went out. I'm still hangover and I've got work soon. It was a brilliant night and I'm surprised I wasn't sick. My feet are literately killing me and all I want to do is sleep. I've got a busy week next week making sure I get as much school work as I can before half term so I can focus on exams and I'm going to spend all half term with Ben and not leave his side to the point where he gets sick of me.

People can seem madly in love when they aren't

Last night's birthday party was brilliant and very funny. It was nice to talk to people hadn't spoken to in ages and talk to people who I had never met before but seemed to be very lovely people. I fell over twice and both times it was because of someone else's fault and now I have bruises. Tom got very drunk because it was the first time he could get served and also the first time he brought me a drink. Today, apart from eating I'm going to do all my Spanish work and watch Blue Valentine and Vicky Christina Barcelona.

When you start doubting that's when things start going wrong

I went to a zombie 18th last night and it was great. Now I've got a shit load of art to do for tomorrow and on top of that I have to decide on what photographs I'm going to send of to my first university choice. Growing up sucks.

If it makes you happy then do it, if it doesn't, then don't

I did a photo shoot today and it was my worst one. Oh well, we all have bad days. I'm planing to go out tomorrow night but it's too cold and I'm not sure if I will.

The entire cat population are my best friends

We went to London on Friday, we went to two Galleries and then went shopping... I only got two tops from Topshop.

Now you've got something to prove and I guess nothing to loose

The night was good, at times. Not so much the end. I love my friends.

I'm gonna paint you by numbers and colour you in

A friend's 18th.

This past month-I've been spending too much time doing nothing, seeing Ben or working. Today I plan to do coursework and sort out university stuff. I got a letter home that said they are going to kick me out of college if I keep not turning up. I've decided on my next tattoo which I'll be getting in December. I got two new cats called Max and Mercadies. I got a new camera, it's a Diana F+ and it's super pretty. I finally met Ben's dad who lives in America. I got drunk a fair amount of times. I spent too much money. I cried. Finally, I'm even more in love.

I dare you to let me be your one and only promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms

Since I last posted I turned 18, got a tattoo, got a huge amount of money, got drunk and realised that that my friends, boyfriend and family are so brilliant. I'm still boring and lazy so not everything has changed. So my birthday week has consisted in going for a meal with my family and Ben on Monday, going for a meal with my friends on Tuesday, getting drunk with my older friends and Ben on Wednesday and the rest of the week I've had work and been ill. Will show pictures of my gifts soon if I remember. promise

There's no stoping us right now, I feel so close to you right now

Petal's 18th. It was a lot of fun.