Flaming my every cell you make me feel myself

Dress from Topshop and tights from a fancy dress shop

My half term is going to be take over by interviews and Ben so I decided to get my homework and coursework done as soon as I can. I've already done half of it! I wish I was going away for half term but never mind because I'm planing to have a little break to London with Ben in Easter and then a few days away with some close friends in the summer but if either of those things don't happen I will not be half broken since I'm going to Califorina to see Ben's dad for two weeks for free some time this year! Ekkk.

You're just a daydream away

I stayed at Ben's last night, it wasn't nice sleeping in his bed without him but he is back in less than a month and he is doing absolutely amazing out there. I didn't get an offer from my first university choice and after being upset and over reacting like I do I decided that if I don't get an offer from London that I will do a foundation course, get some work experience and try again next year. If I wasn't with Ben, I would most probably apply to study abroad.

I'll never say "never again"

I dyed and cut my hair today, I look all ill and ugly but I'm feeling better and I'm missing Ben already....when did I turn so soppy.

You're too good for me. You're too good for anyone

I got Tumblr again. Not sure why...but yeah, I did so you follow if ya like (click!)

The way that I'm feeling I just can't deny

New top from ASOS £12

I've dyed some of my hair pink, pictures soon. I'd say happy Halloween but it's a silly celebration that hardly anyone actually knows why it's celebrated. Saying that, I like any excuse to get drunk and dress up.

The way that you are is enough

I've been busy and my internet has been down, hence the lack of posts. I keep telling my self that I'll share interesting things but it's not really working...

So I've been with my boyfriend for half a year and that's fucking crazy for me considering I really don't do relationships. I'm happy, like, really happy. I saw someone who I used to work with this week (hadn't seen her since february) and she told me I looked well and asked what I had Ben and I guess it shows how good he is for me. Anyway, enough of that. I've had my tattoo finished and after three hours and ten minutes of pain I'm pretty dam happy with it. I can't wait for it to heal up.

I'll stop eating food and I'll squeeze in to your dress so I can feel like you

Dress from Cult and playsuits from New Look, kids section. And yeah, that's my new tattoo which I'll get finished next week.

I'm sorry I've been forgeting about my blog. I have no idea what I've been doing but since my birthday I just haven't had time and I have no idea why. Notyhing exciting has happened. I've shoped a lot and got a new laptop. I'll share pictures as soon as I photograph them. We also got two new cats. This house is evne more of a zoo.This week I'm going out and going to see my first choice univeristy and I'm super excited. I've been wanting to go there since I was 15.

I won't get used to being gone

I got an A in my first year of photography. I'm very happy and congrats are welcome. I have so many exciting things coming up next month and I really can't wait. I got an extra bonus of £50 for the wedding photography I did. My life is pretty fucking great right now. I booked my tattoo for the day after my birthday since my birthday is on a Monday and I forgot that they are closed. I'm so excited it's unreal, I've wanted a tattoo since I was about nine! I plan to online window shop most of the day, since it looks like Ben isn't coming over.

This love is dirtier than you think

The first pictures I took when I got high, I'm not sure why. That's Bailey, Ben's dog. Camp Bestival things. I love that necklace. Lastly, I've started to stretch my ear and that's the second stage bar... I'm not going very big though.

Just had to take it on the chin

So Milan's fashion week won me over. I'm in love with Bottega Veneta's (above) and Valentino's (below) Autumn/winter collections.




I'm going out of my mind, I'm actually looking forward to my last week of the first year of college but not because it's one week till the Summer holidays as in, I want to go in and have those lessons and see people I guess it's because I know I'll get bored drugging the Summer holidays at some point because I always do then again, I've never had a proper boyfriend drugging Summer so....

I'm currently sandal shopping because I have no shoes to go with the dress I'm wearing to the wedding and I'm freaking out, never thought finding some brown sandals would be so hard none seem to be right and the only ones I did find didn't have my size. So. Annoying. I'm booking my tattoo tomorrow, hopefully but I have a feeling the shop might be closed then so I might have to go on Tuesday after my hair cut.

You don't want me no you don't need me, like I want you no like I need you

I just dyed my hair. It wasn't meant to look this dark but never mind, I feel like me again. PS: thank you to whoever put one of my pictures on Favim and credit it.

We were like strangers who knew each other very well

So I just got an account on Dailybooth (here), I know it's harsh but I'm so glad I got it...i just sit and laugh at the people on it. Don't get me wrong obviously there are a lot of normal and pretty amazing people but a lot of the people on it are good to laugh at when you're bored, don't worry I don't post mean comments I just laugh to myself and move on, I'm sure people will do it to me when I post more pictures.

Her mind's made up, she don't wanna go steady

That's the first time I've worn those shorts in public other than the two times I wore them on holiday. I was feeling brave. Necklace from Topshop,top from New Look and shorts from Topshop.

My mum got me those three DVDs and that top from Topshop for Easter but I'm aloud them now. She also said she will buy me a ticket to Camp Bestivall (it's a festival) as an early 18th birthday present and I couldn't be happier. The line up includes - Laura Marling,Blondie,Mark Ronson,Eliza Doolittle,Frankie & the Heartstrings,Labrinth,Wretch 32,Yasmine,Caitlin Rose,Clare Maguire,Katy B and many more. I'm going with Tom, Petal and Phoebe and I'm so excited. I've just been listening to The Vaccines none stop since I got home and I think I'm going to watch Matilda this evening.

I feel no sympathy

I've decided on 4/5 universities now:

1. University College Falmouth

2. University of the Arts (London College of Fashion)

3. Southampton Solent University

4. University of Wales, Newport

5. Really can't find a 5th one and it's stressing me out since I've looked at over 50!

We are so short on money that's beyond stupid and here I am thinking about universities. Today was rough and as normal, didn't get much done and I don't even know why I bother going in to college half the time because in art and photography I don't need the teachers (maybe the one question now and again) and can do it all at home. Blugh. I don't know what to do with myself tonight.

It's better if you don't understand

Today was such a pretty day. I've eaten so much today that it's unreal. I've had, two pieces of toast with jam, three smallish doughnuts, packet of crisps, mars bar, two bowls of soup and for dinner I had chips and a fried egg. I think I'm eating my feelings SO DISGUSTING. On the plus sideI've decided on my top two universities today, University of the Arts London and University College Falmouth. I will be trying to get in to the fashion photography course since it's the only thing I can sort of do. I don't really mind which one I end up going to but I have no hopes in to getting in to the London one. The fact that my mum is on some romantic walk along the sea front makes me feel pretty sick. I'm going to be super busy next week and might not get a chance to blog much at all.

I'm gonna make you understand that you threw it all away

Today was not even worth exciting. I woke up at my normal time had some jam on toast and as soon as my mum went to work I went back to bed and missed two hours of Spanish then for some reason I bothered going in to art and did that for about four hours... although I got hardly anything done. He's only said two words to me since Saturday night "Alright darling?" and that's only because I asked if he was okay first. I don't understand why he's ignoring me I'm not the one who's done wrong and I actually want to stay friends even though I wasn't the one that acted like a cunt.

I wore eye shadow for the first time in years.

I finally found the energy to clean and tidy my room so I'm feeling better. Tonight I plan to get an early night since I have to actually function tomorrow, I'm going to some university convention so it's pretty important, I need to think up some questions and what university stalls I want to actually see. At the moment my top three universities are Birmingham City University, University College of Falmouth and University of the Arts London. They are the only ones I've found with courses I want to do and could maybe have a chance of getting in to... although apparently London is hard to get in to. I plan to watch one of these two films tonight.

If I was myself all the time I'd always be silent

I'm so stressed, I have a sociology exam on Friday and nothing seems to be going right. My mum told me she will ask me to move out if I carry on the way I am and not doing as she tells me, pathetic. I dyed my hair red last night and it didn't work because my hair is too dark so I think I might pre-lighten it but I'm not sure yet. Luna came out for a bit today, I also tried to get my big boy Jasper out but he wasn't having it haha.

We're supposed to drop like flys

The past couple of nights I haven't been able to get to sleep till around three and I have college tomorrow so I'm really hoping I sleep OK tonight. I thought about making a video for my blog once I get more followers, I don't know how that will go or what I would even talk about but just thought it would be something different. I guess I'll just be doing college work today as much as I don't want to. Oh, I also got yet another cold, I think it was from new years eve, going out in just a dress and tights and kissing a few people doesn't help. Oh and good news is that I'm aloud scales again! So, so happy.


Over size jumper from Love at Topshop in the sale for £20.00


Cute dress from Topshop £26.00


Cape coat from Topshop sale £40.00 was £85.00, such a bargain!


The only bright bra I own from the New Look sale £4.00



I'm dying my hair red on the weekend even though I told myself I wouldn't until it was long again but oh well.