My day so far has been awful and I have no idea why. I have a head cold and I have no motivation to do any work. Ross surprised me by showing up at my house minutes after I had been crying and I looked awful and really didn't want to see anyone but at the same time I was so glad he showed up. He had to leave as soon as he found out that Liverpool was winning on todays football match, so now I feel down again and I'm not even sure why. I've given myself a hair cut just to see if it would make me feel any better but it didn't work. All I can do is try and do all this art work and not think.